So I have now reached the point of no sleep. I am so anxious and nervous about what lies ahead for me that I work myself up into a ball of nerves. So here I am typing at 1 am, in the dark, waiting to pass out. My nervousness and anxiety mainly comes from me finding it hard to let go of friends and family for the next 2 years. I can't understand why this feels different than when I moved to Guam. Even my family seems more apprehensive. I feel like this should be easier, after all, I am not 18 and the Caribbean is far closer than Guam. I feel like I have proven a point to myself and my family through all my travels that I should be able to handle this, but still I am reluctantly excited. Maybe most of it is because I still am not exactly sure of what my job is. They have only given me a vague idea of what I "might" be doing. Maybe, I guess, I am most nervous about when I am done out there. I am anxious to see the change that this will have on me, and I am curious as to which direction I will go. I wonder if I will feel like this everday for the next two years...